Now it's certain!

Existence vs. nonexistence

I sometimes wonder how much of a life to live over the next 7 odd months. I find that there is so much to be done that I being to sacrifice pleasures. Empty things like, should I buy myself that new, insert some item of use like clothing etc, do I need one? Should I dress myself in rags till the day comes to hit the road. How do I balance in the material world as I shed layers of ownership.

the days are taking themselves out

I feel like my extra time is almost done, and the real crunch time is about to begin.

There are just a few more "icing on my cake" days until the New Year. Then the mad dash will really begin.
My goal in the next few days is to speak as little as possible, and stare at the wall as much as I can. I feel a need to embrace my silence, to quiet my ego so that we may truly hear what it is the New Year has to say to us.
Thank you all for your continued love, I hope you found your Holidays lovely and your New Year joyous!

Sending you love from deep down in my heart.

the ol bait and switch

I feel most comfortable on the shooting end of the camera, a hunched cyclops as sensitive to light as a vampire. Hunting for the subtleties of verse in the contour of your lines. Shadow, shape, intent as my prey.
I decided to bit the bullet and visit my uncomfortable zone and let this magic maker take me for a ride.

I have to say I am honored by his interest in my travels and in raptures of anticipation to see his finished project.

The things to be given up

I have an amazing job in a beautiful city

what I've done today for the trip

I've spent the last 6 hours on emails...

This is not an exaggeration.
You know it's that old truth that when it comes to working on your own stuff it's like molasses in winter, suddenly I don't even know what a computer is.
Honestly at this point I don't even know my own name, few more emails to go!

Here is a little something for you:

my little quirk

When I get overwhelmed I pull everything out of my closet and then put it back in. When I am on the road this manifests as dumping out my backpack and repacking. I don't know why, it's just an odd quirk of mine, and no I won't come clean your closet, it doesn't work that way!

just some clarification, a time line

So I am launching this amazing endeavor with my first class in Mexicali being hosted by the amazing
Alejandra on Aug 20th 2012.

Previous to this I will be hitting the road with the FCBD crew!

So here's my next few months as a rough outline:

December:

It's the holidays! Work my little but off trying to pull in as much money as I can and stock it into my savings, sorry friends this means no presents this year!

January 2012:
I'm going to Russia! I've been invited by the Russian Tribal Mafia to teach a workshop with the lovely Kae Montgomery, and I am so flipping excited I just don't have the words. It's gonna be cold bt I am going to LOVE LOVE LOVE every minute of it!

February:

Looks like I'll be doing something fancy in the East with the big "T" but not letting the cat out of the bag yet!

March:

Cues and Tattoos Seattle WA!
Troupe fun and working on a new matching tattoo for the troupe!

April:
I will spend this month in the deepest grip of fear as I try and sell everything not sold yet and to get ready for the last month in my apartment!

May:

This is the last projected month in my apartment(I feel sick even typing this), Tribal Fest is this month, yeah for out of town friends, also it is my birthday month, and I was thinking of throwing a big fundraiser, bday, goodbye etc party....the epic-ness is in the details.

June:

this is the month to tie up loose ends, I'll be couch surfing, thank you SF friends in advance, working as much as I can and praying to the giant gummy bear in the sky that I am pulling it all together.

July:

Something here dance wise is in the works, keeping my fingers crossed that it comes about and will be letting you know more when I can.
About mid-July I will say goodbye to SF, to my lovely co-workers and amazing bosses in the dog world, selling my car and catching a flight up to WA where most of my family has migrated to.
There I will spend time with the parentals and the sisters. I will drink wine and eat food and sleep for days at a time and bask in the presence of people that still treat me like a 5 year old. There's nothing like family to make you humble.

August:

From there I will jet South to my amazing Auntie and my Poppo (my grandfather). I'll spend some lovely down time with them in sunny San Diego, see my SoCal friends and then grab a ride from the lovely and loving Sooz across the boarder and to Mexical to the loving arms of my first host!
WHEW!

Do you still envy me?
So that is the basic plan, but life will do what life does best and that is run on a schedule of its own.

So I will do what I do best and hold on for the ride, but not to tightly because sometimes being thrown off is the most exciting part!